December 2011
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Anonymous asked: Can you do a follow-up/update post cycle? As well as any side effects you've experienced since finishing? Pics would be awesome too!
October 2011
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Conclusion
I never actually finished the cycle.
I got about half way through when my dealer got into some trouble with his employer. Amidst that and stress from work and school, I decided to trash my stash. Cutting myself off from steroids abruptly resulted in serious acne all over my body but it’s since gone away.
Overall, I don’t feel like I benefited that much from steroids. I think I...
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September 2011
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Anonymous asked: I think you are unbelievably sexy please post more pictures!!!! <3
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Rage
There are still situations that I get into where I remain very calm despite the situation and the fact that I’m on steroids. A friend recently asked me why I didn’t kick someone’s ass, and I just said, “I don’t see how that would help things.”
I think it goes back to that study of how the side effects of steroids are really affected by the intelligence of the...
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Food
My trainer/dealer says that I’m not eating enough. If I really want to gain muscle, I’m going to have to eat a lot more. I’m going to gain fat, but I can cut it later.
I’ve been watching my calories and eating well for so long, it’s hard to throw caution to the wind sometimes.
Rage
Been a bit cranky lately. It’s not caused by the steroids, but I think the steroids may be adding a little something to how I’m feeling. Friends cheer me up, just like any other time.
Lumpy ass
The person who normally injects me was busy so someone less experienced shot the testosterone into my gluteus maximus (it’s easier to do it there). And now my right cheek is sore and lumpy. Fucking sucks.
I'm getting big in all the right places
Noticeably so. I don’t think it’s all in my head.
I’m very excited. I know I already started with a pretty fit body, but for the first time in my life I feel good about the way I look every time I see myself in a mirror. That’s an amazing feeling.
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Rage
I had a lot of trouble controlling my hormones this morning. I went through depression, self-loathing, anger, and giddiness. It’s not something I haven’t experienced before, so I was fine. Not sure if the test-e amplified it, but it very may well have. There was one point though when I was shaking. I felt better after a friend calmed me down and I had something to eat.
It all...
I got over my cold pretty quickly. I have some friends that are still really sick. Someone noted that steroids boost your immune system. Maybe…
I'm sick.
This may put a damper on my workouts.
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Assessment (3rd week)
Did a full body composition analysis at the clinic. I’m now at 160 (from 154).
I’ve gained 4 pounds of muscle, pretty fucking awesome.
I’ve lost 1 1/2 pounds of fat.
And the rest of the extra weight is water weight that will probably come off after I finish the cycle.
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Anonymous asked: im 25 and also on a cycle, i was wondering what sort of cycle u are running. And have u experienced any side effects yet? Acne, night sweats, rage etc....
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Assessment
My trainer did a body composition analysis for me.
I’ve already gained five pounds, 2 1/2 of which are muscle. I was starting to doubt that the steroids were doing anything at all, but that’s pretty surprising.
Noticed that my veins have been bulging a lot lately.
Other than that and maybe a little “puffiness”/water retention, nothing out of the ordinary at all. Not angry, no acne, dick’s still kong.
August 2011
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I feel like I’ve gotten puffy-looking, which I suppose is expected.
I shouldn’t have shaved my body. That was a stupid idea, I think it only exaggerates the effect. Plus, I think my body hair looks good on me.
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jujitsukillu-deactivated2011103 asked: I would love to do the exact same thing as you are doing- from a serious POV though. Honestly the only thing holding me back is the inability to find a seller/dealer.
Triceps hurrrttt
A lot actually. Whatever.
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1 cc of test-e right in the tricep
fucking badass
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testosterone enthanate
Never really thought I’d do it but now I am. I’ve been taking very good care of my body. Over the course of a year I transformed my blobby self into a lean, muscular, cut man. I ate healthy, worked my body to the bone, practically starved myself towards the end to lose excess fat. And I look good. But I wanted more.
I slowly became convinced that steroid use was not a big deal. ...
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I thought it was pretty hilarious that my dealer, a completely straight dude, was injecting my bare ass with steroids. I don’t know, just funny to me. Like a gay porno or something. But it really wasn’t so bad or embarrassing.
My ass is sore tho…
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Text Messages from my dealer
D: How are the hormones?
Me: No bruised friends or lovers. Just a lumpy ass.
(That ass injection left with a hardened lump. Weird.)
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Text Messages from my dealer
D: How the first lift go? Roid rage?
Me: LoL no roid rage, just a sore ass.
D: Have you beat ur lady friend yet, or punched a hole in the wall?
Me: Haha no no, not yet. Maybe after I do arms. Was lower body today.
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“K I’m gonna do it. Let me know what you need from me or where I should...”
– text message to my “dealer” when I decided to take advantage of some safe, reliable, steroids 